There’s always that new year resolution that make people make –to be a better person.
You run more. You eat less pizza. You study harder. You don’t slack off at work. You don’t bite your nails. You water the plants. You don’t shout at your folks. You get the drift…
A better person doesn’t really mean one thing. It means that you want to change something but you’re scared to admit to yourself what exactly that is because it makes you feel vulnerable. You then make a broad sweep and do many small things, trying to convince yourself that all of that is contributing towards a change.
And then again, maybe you didn’t fix exactly the one thing you should have but atleast you’re thinner and fitter and your nails don’t look like a bleeding mess.
Fixing things isn’t easy. Attempting to do it is commendable, but it takes more effort than others can imagine. I want to change something about myself too, and it’s harder when it has failed you before.
You run more. You eat less pizza. You study harder. You don’t slack off at work. You don’t bite your nails. You water the plants. You don’t shout at your folks. You get the drift…
A better person doesn’t really mean one thing. It means that you want to change something but you’re scared to admit to yourself what exactly that is because it makes you feel vulnerable. You then make a broad sweep and do many small things, trying to convince yourself that all of that is contributing towards a change.
And then again, maybe you didn’t fix exactly the one thing you should have but atleast you’re thinner and fitter and your nails don’t look like a bleeding mess.
Fixing things isn’t easy. Attempting to do it is commendable, but it takes more effort than others can imagine. I want to change something about myself too, and it’s harder when it has failed you before.
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